I just finished watching a CSI episode that was about a Japanese man named Rei and how he was killed during WWII by his killed-in-battle son's best friend, Skip. Skip was white, and when Rei went to ask skip for a reccomendation to get his son, Billy, a purple heart for his bravery in battle, Skip killed him because of how the war changed him (making him believe all the Japanese people were only evil...nothing else.)

The ending made me cry, because I noticed how far America really has come, though we still have a long way to go before we can really call ourselves a "free country". Even though America made strides and are still, its hard to imagine that the building blocks of this country were established on racism, death and predjudice. Native Americans, Japanese, African Americans, Hispanics, Hindu, Arab...all have suffered at some point in our history...and it just angers me so much.

My mother always tells me I am lucky to be white, even though my ancestry proves my still 25% Portugese heritage mixed in there. Really, I am lucky to be the one race that doesn't have to put up with the predjudice, be part of the one country who really does try hard to be a good one. To not be hungry, poor and without a house or parents.

I am not 100% white, but enough to where my Portugese is barely noticable to the naked eye. Yet I am still so proud of my mix, Irish/German/Portugese/Canadian Indian, that sometimes I wish I wasn't really considered "white/caucasian"....because honestly I am not....not deep down.

America's mix of races is what makes us special and ahead of the times. I love the multicultural aspect of our country, that I can walk down the street and shop at the Korean Market, join in on Spokane's Japan Week, and work at a school dedicated to bettering the relationship between Japanese girls and American girls. I love it so very much, and I cherish it with all my heart.

I am proud to be who I am, but I still have regrets on how my ancestors got here.

FIRST....I AM GOING TO SEE LABRYNTH TONIGHT FOR THE MIDNIGHT MOVIE AT THE GARLAND!!!! YESSS for David Bowie and his continuously growing crotch, girls with ugly 80s clothing and muppets dancing along to rock music!!!!


Last night, around 8:40pm, my friend/co-worker Erin came back to the dorms after around two weeks of babysitting a house for the librarian here at my work. She said she was going to go play ice hockey with our other co-worker Stacia and her friends from her church and soon invited me along.

At first I was a little hesitant, because honestly, I am not a religious person, nor have I really gotten along with religious people, so I felt I might not be accepted. Pretty much Erin and Stacia begged me to come, so I decided, meeting new people is fun, and hey, I might get to convert some girls to DBSK fans. XDD

So we got to the ice rink around 10pm, wearing only our running shoes, gloves, and a light sweater. The rink was FULL of people from the church and friends they had invited, so it wasn't like I was the only invited person. (It made it a lot less awkward not to be the only new person, let me tell you!)

The game had really no rules except to not beat the shit out of each other! XD We were given a hockey stick and a blue rubber ball and the coach-guy (don't know if he was like....the paster of the church or minister or whatever) just said...GO! For the first half I just watched while getting to know a very kind girl named Nikki, whom I think I may have peaked an intrest into DBSK with! *SCOOOOREEE!*

I did actually get my team to root for me since I was just made into the goalie about halfway through the game, and believe me, I am not a sporty person, so I am probably the worst person to put as goalie in the fucking world! (And I am just walking on the ice in my running shoes...so cordination went out the proverbial window.)

All in all, I have to say, I had a LOT of fun with an activity and a group of people I thought I never would. Though it was really hard not to swear like the drunken sailor I usually am! >.< But everyone was quite kind and many girls a a few boys came up to talk to me during breaks, just getting to know me.

It was a fun way to spend a Thursday summer night.

Fiat_amorfati here on LJ brought up a good point about her TVXQ/DBSK/THSK fandom, and the reasons as to why she is part of the fandom in the first place/why she spends money on them.

To be honest, I have been a part of this fandom since October 2006 and to think it has been that long kind of surprises me. I was a part of the Harry Potter fandom for around 6-7 years before this DBSK phase came along, so it is interesting to look back on other fandoms I have been into periodically.
My many fandoms include, Sailor Moon (my first fandom...or virgin fandom LOL), Harry Potter, Twilight (I feel silly saying that), Gackt, Larc-en-Ciel....sheesh, so many....and that isn't even all of them.

LONG POST OF RANDOM THOUGHTS ON FANDOM AND PICS OF MY NEW ROOM UNDER THE CUT
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1. The fact that the posters of THSK actually had to have security guards guarding them from the fangirls about the rape the pillars the pictures were attached to.

2. That there is goat cheese. Goat + cheese = giggles from me because I am easily amused.

3. That there are Appa/Momo shippers in the Avatar universe. (animal smex?)

4. Kathy Griffen and her almighty amazingness on her show on Bravo, she really is hilarious in her antics to get noticed.

5. That Zuko looks a lot like Changmin in the second season of Avatar.

6. That my mother thinks green and red in combination does not remind anyone of Xmas, but of salsa. *rollseyes*

- Went over to Pat and Jessie's house and watched Avatar, it was fun. I love Avatar and I love my two friends, so it was a good night last night.

- Went home yesterday morning and grabbed the Rising Sun concert to watch and as I was walking to grab my purse, my father replies, "Oh that concert...thats a good concert...those guys are really good." Once he said that I had to ask how he had watched it, so he said he was bored one day and grabbed it from my DVD collection. I had to get over the surprise first to ask why he had been in my DVD collection in the first place. (So happy he didn't watch my close-to YAOI...that would have been...more than embarassing.)

- Want AADBSKIII to come out like nao...before I spend all my money on seeing the new HP movie 12 times and a trip to Seattle.

- Want my new glasses frames to come in already....AAAAH.

- Wants to go to Tokyo Dome concerts so bad she can feel the itch in her heart! *cries*

- Is now on a diet again.

- Really wish I could eat McDonalds....the greasy, fatty goodness of good. *huggles the devilishly delicious Chicken Nuggets*

- Wishes she was pretty....

Supposedly my mother said my first words were, "Poo poo mama."

As in, I pooped mother come wipe my ass.

Yeah...shows how special I turned out.

So, probably sometime in mid-July or early July, my friend/co-worker Erin and I will come over to Seattle, either to stay with her family, friends of mine, or in a hotel. We would come for the weekend and have a road trip, etc, etc.

It was pretty funny, we hadn't really talked much before yesterday, and when we did, we found out we had so much in common it was scary. We also understood we both hated Moses Lake (we call it Moses Hell), and so when we drive past it we are gonna take a picture flipping the town off. Yeah...that is how weird we be together. LOL!

So, again, if anyone has a place we could stay for free, we would really appreciate it, if not I mean, we can try and find another place. ^-^ No pressure!

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realator hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who is afraid because I can love a man and a woman.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong.

R.I.P Michael Jackson

I remember dancing to your music when I was a child, my pink tutu pulled on top of my actual clothes, my socks as my slippers, you were my entertainment and gave me so much happiness through your songs.

You will be remembered.

My last post about the success of BigBang in Japan was, I admit, incredibly rude and offensive to the many friends I have on here who enjoy the band and their music.

Though I didn't really appreciate people telling me I don't know the BB music or style.
No, I do not know the band personally but I have listened to their music, and yes I know they are a talented group of men who do compose and choreograph a lot of their productions. I may have brought my opinions on what I PERSONALLY consider talent a little too harshly. Personally I find the BB boys unattractive, but should that be a basis to observe the band, NO, no it shouldn't and I was wrong to say that.

I never intended to hurt anyone's feelings, really I didn't. I like to consider myself level headed and yet I have to admit, I am incredibly opinionated and stubborn. Its those qualities which get me in trouble.

I was an angry DBSK fan and I can imagine most of you will understand why I was angry.

It just seemed like BigBang got so much all of a sudden that it hurts to think that DBSK could have had an easier road. BB doesn't have to go through the depression, the hurt, the hours and hours of studying Japanese to make it in the industry.

Do I want BB to fail, no, never, I would never wish that upon others, especially a band that I do not know entirely.

I understand why you were all hurt. I feel terrible for hurting all of your feelings, and I personally shouldn't have wrote my opinions in such a way.

BUT...this is my personal journal and I feel I have a right to speak my mind here. I do admit what I say was faulty and full of unnecessary anger, but consider the fact that these are only my emotions/opinions and not a personal attack on any one specific person.

I am not one of those crazy DBSK fans you see attacking all rival boybands, I really am not, I was angry. Angry at one specific time, at one specific moment. Please do not lump me in with a group of crazies when you do not know me as a PERSON IN LIFE.

Again, I am sorry for what I said, have a good rest of your day.

Your (hopefully) friend,
Megan

P.S. That puppy, that's my face right now.

Or is anyone else pissed that Big Bang made it to #4 on the Oricon charts without even trying?

I mean, I don't hate Big Bang, but I am not a fan whatsoever....and to see them get so high on the Oricon so quickly when Tohoshinki (a better, more talented band) had to work like hell to get even to #10 a while back.

BigBang better be thankful to BoA and DBSK paving the way for them to be more openly accepted in Japan, or I bet you BB wouldn't be half as popular as they are in Japan right now.

I just wish BB would disappear, stop taking all the spotlight away from bigger, better, more talented bands. None of the guys in BB are good looking, none of them can sing live (at least in my opinion), and they dress like like drunken dipshits.

TEH FUCKING END.

PERRIWYNKKLE ICONS

[25]-DBSK/THSK/TVXQ

Feel free to use, but please credit me if you do! CREDIT IS IMPORTANT!

I am still only a beginner with icons, so if they aren't all that amazing that is why. ^-^

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The cutest animal baby has to be PUPPIES!

Yes I know this is a generic and boring answer, but really, it is true! My favorite are lab and dalmation puppies because holy shit the cuteness is absurd! *squishes them all*

I could spend hours with puppies and not know what to do with myself except squeal in giddy joy.

When you have to study or get work done, what music (if any) do you put on to help you concentrate?

Usually, I listen to these bands/singers:

1. DBSK/THSK/TVXQ: Why, because they are my favorite band and they sing the songs I just kind of drone on with...I know all of them by heart.

2. Linkin Park: Yes, I know, a weird combination, but really I love their lyrics and what they stand for.

3. The Killers: Weird, melodic, and highly addictive, I love their music.

4. Modest Mouse: Amazing band, amazing music to drone out to.

5. Random techno: Because again, easy to drone out to.

More girls with nothing nice to say about Changmin.

I swear to god....if I hear one more comment about how Changmin's hair is ugly or his voice is too loud I am gonna bust a cap in someone's ass.

IS THAT ALL YOU CAN SAY ABOUT HIM? HE IS PART OF THE BAND YOU KNOW.

FUCK YOU ALL.

*angry Changmin fan again*

Know why....

Because I am a loner. I like my time alone, I like to be able to tell myself what to do and where to go with no-one to contact or anticipate contact.
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For all my buds living in/around the Seattle area, I was hoping to come over there some time this summer for a DBSK/TVXQ fanmeet-up...just go out to dinner, hangout, whatever.

I was wondering, if any of you would be wanting to do that and, if possible, house me and my friend for around 2-3 days.

If you are you can post a comment here, or leave me a Message on LJ. ^-^

THANKS!

Junsu fans....

I love Junsu just as much as the next person, but has it ever occured to many other member's fans....that Junsu fans are insanely....rude to the other boys?

You may not want to read on if you are easily offended by bitchiness.
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Yesterday, as everyone knows, was my 21st birthday, and with it came a lot of surprises. This is the FIRST birthday I have spent with a boyfriend (yes true story), and also the first time I have really been able to legally drink. ^-^

As I went downstairs to meet Erich outside at his car (to go out to dinner), I opened the door and on the steps was a glass vase, filled to the brim with red tipped roses. I kind of gasped and Erich came stepping out from around the corner all handsome like then saying,
"21 roses for you on your 21st birthday."



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*tries to not sound self-absorbed*

I am 21 today....same age as our amazing Changmin! I can drink, I can party, and yet it is still a school night so really I can't do those things listed. FUCK YOU COLLEGE!

Anyways, I also just learned I share my birthday with Donald Duck...or was it Daffy Duck...either way that is still a little creepy-ish.

Tonight I am going out to dinner at Red Lobster (cause fresh crab is fucking delicious, I understand why Min is so obsessed with it...its orgasmic I tell you!) with my parents, lil' sis, grandma and boyfriend. ^-^ It will be a fun time I bet, I'll get the present my boyfriend has been all secretive about...hmmm....wonder what it is.

Also, this weekend I will be busy going bar hopping with Jean and Kyle, then on top of that going to Twiggs and getting martini's with the gals. Jesus...I am going to be so doped up on alcohol that finals are gonna suck. OH THE FUCK WELL! XDDD

OH COOL STORY! I met a guy a school, he is in my Japanese class but I don't talk to him much, and he is half-Korean. He mentioned that he knew of my obsession with DBSK since he saw me wearing my TVXQ tshirt a few times...and he also said this, "Oh yeah I am friends with Jessica H.O., the singer girl."

I was like this,................ O_O SERIOUSLY!

He said that he had been friends with her (kind of) through high school and then when he went to live in Korea for a while, she met up with him there...they sung karaoke together and ate dinners together.

So its kind of cool knowing a guy who kind of has an in on the Korean entertainment industry. Everytime though that I said I loved DBSK he just chuckled and was like, "You sound like every other girl in Korea."

I want some Ruby Red Squirt....